WHEN DO I THINK I EXIST

I exist when I am doing daily routine works like reading newpapers shaving dressing riding bus going to bank for money and going to grocery to buy daily needs.
I exist when I have to attend a average social function listen to people talking to the topic which I have no interest but have to listen for reasons.
I EXIST when I am ill I cant do what I want to do.
I exist when I am angry I exist through misunderstanding and when I think of taking revenge
I exist when I make fool of others.
I exist when I don't keep my words and give reasons for that.
I exist when I overlook other's distress

I exist when I fail to keep my words and give reasons for that

I exist when I bring sorrow with my deeds.

I exist when I tell lies for personal gains.